karkatjohn

I see the other students all around me, laughing, chatting, and enjoying one another. Each one of them at least has one other that they are chatting with. They all seem to have no cares in the world, other than to be the best, most popular, etc. I sit with a group yes, but they really almost never talk with me, just at me. They say they are my friends but they still don't seem like it to me. I fear hurting them with what goes through my mind, but the thing is, I really don't trust anyone. I fear their judgement. I fear their cruel condescending words. I fear that I shall be shunned by them. I fear that they will one day grow to dislike me.